90s’ by heart in a 20s’ era!

I woke up one day and figured out the last missing piece to my puzzle.

Why was I different from everyone else?

I am a simple little girl in a complicated MAD world! I believe in the little joys of life, nothing too fancy or extravagant. Sheer love, Togetherness, Passion, Laughter, Long Talks, Hugs & Compassion is all that I ever believed in. Yet, things would get difficult to deal with at times.

It took me a while to realize it wasn’t ME. I had kept wondering, blaming, tearing up & screaming in pain trying to understand what I was doing wrong every single time. Was it the matter I was trying to convey? Was it the tone? Was it the emotion? Was it the person whom I was conveying it to? It could be a mixture of all of these or it could be none of these.

A little confused, aren’t we? Let me decode that for you! Well, I can’t speak for others & neither can I change them. But, my point being I realized I was different in a GOOD & very SPECIAL way! Ofcourse, I wasn’t perfect and I do have my flaws. But I don’t have to blame my whole existence for that just because the world and its people are a certain way. Look at me, talking like I’m from another planet!!

Let me tell you the difference, Im like the legendary Ms.Madhubala! Im an old-fashioned damsel who lives in a modern era. Dramatic as ever, always have an overflowing bucket of emotions, having expectations that may seem too much to ask for in todays’ world. But if you look at it, Overall they are actually just gestures that have the basic values rooted in them. I’m a girl who believes in wild crazy love which can be as passionate as ever after all who are we to put a limit to it.

So when I give, I give it my ALL. But you know the part that hurts the most, not getting back even half of what I expected. WHY if you may ask? Coz in today’s world, people have no time, are not as compassionate as before, are simply ignorant, are all about the I, Me & Myself. See, I might be getting a tad bit negative over here-It is not a bad thing to think about yourself and we should but I wish it wasn’t all the way to the other extreme. Or maybe I should have just been born in the right era.

I love the way I am and thankful to the reason that moulded me into this bundle of special little things. But as the years go by, it does get hard if you don’t adapt to this world and trust me, I am learning one step at a time!

But the question is why should I change all of who I am? Then will I be able to recognize myself at all? and will there be a girl like me with heart & soul that’s all about the 90s’ ever again?

Adapt in a way that eradicates your flaws, but not in a way that removes the purity of your SOUL!